Heart on Fiyah..Di Internet Rasta ting, di boards, an How I King ask I to Resolve

From The Rastafari Expression,
A regular column by Kaya I Isesajah, Aug 11, 2005         

I was introduced to the Internet, Bredrin an Sistren, back in 1998. I was fresh not SO young, but Green Green Green when it come to 'the net' 'online' and never knew typing in caps was SHOUTING. But I learn quick Iyah.

I was just coming into a period of I life discovering Yahshua as I Saviour who INI King Haile Selassie I endeavoured to led I to. I was sooo zealous yuh know. It was I desire that I should mek sure everyone know what I woman know, an along di way, ones took I postings of His Majesty's beleifs, His Majesty's speeches, an Utterances, about Yahshua, as a personal attack on their own Faith.

But, as His Majesty had allways taught I, that Faith is a personal trod, an that INI mus Value an Raspeck each Man or Woman Faith, an not question it, I TRIED allways to keep this in mind as I learned more an more about 'Christianity'. I allways ended I postings wid di Idea of 'agreeing to disagree' an by telling ones 'I am not here to CONvert anyone from dem own views'. I merely wanted to exclaim what I learned. But it was not allways taken that way.

It was becuz of this zealousness to 'spread di Word of Jah' that ones pon di net, (allthough never meeting I woman), began to formulate BAD opinions of I. They took each word at times, scrutinizing dem, sometimes misoverstanding dem an leaning pon dem own misoverstanding.

It seemed that some ones never even realeyes'd that though the Net is an excellent means of communication, ones mus be carefull not to forget that absent from our Net communications, is body language, facial expressions, ability to question or make quick statemants to one another, thereby clarifying any reasoning when necessary, as INI do in live person to person reasonings.

It is quite obvious how things could be misconstrued, during a conversation over the Net. However, at times, the Net has become a platform for those wid a more evilicious intent, ones who try to change ones words, twisting ones words, an making judgemants solely pon 'words' about a next Bredrin or Sistren. It is suprising to see, especially amongst INI Children of Jah, the fussing an fighting, the rude an provoking comments, and the overall ungodly comments especially since INI are all suppose to be pon di same side, which is directly opposite of di side of the Evil One.

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I will say that I fall prey, to this behaviour, an I being one who vexes quite easily, in Life, see how mi vex so QUICKLY PON DI NET. Yuh will see I lick a man or woman good wid I words, no doubt. It is becuz mi allso a strong woman physically an I allways try fi steam off WID WORDS RATHER THAN TO CUFF SOMEONE!!

As ones called I names, an rebuked I for I views, I committed sin after sin using choice words an feistyness. While I was allways Raspeckfull to ones who was Raspeckfull to I, it was much harder to keep that Godly Raspeck fi ones who called I 'internet rasta', 'babylonian christian','evangelist'an 'missionarry'.

The 'internet rasta' vibz that one Bredrin sent via a sistren who allways hated I becuz of I Faith, particularily bothered I woman. Di woman bun fiyah pon I jus fi I views, an I opinions! To I woman she fi beg a lick!!

I have allways been Rastafari. I never knew anything else, since I kulcha an Livity have never changed! The only real change I made was how I woman viewed Yahshua. I never committed to any 'church' or 'religion', an to this day, remain Rasta, an do His works, daily, even if I am not on di net, Raising I two Prince an I likkle Princess, to I woman was the greatest works of all.

One ting is fi sure Iyah, mi allways trodding Rastafari, becuz I greatest struggle was growing up di victim of Racism, Prejudice, an Discrimination, albeit not as severe as some of I Fleshy who is of darker skin tone than I, but all di same, wid in I very own family where it hurt di most, I endured.

I marry to a Rastafari, I have I pickney wid a Rastafari, I family is Rastafari, yuh know mi never seperate. But I express I views an I opinions readily. Never though, have I woman in 'live' reasonings have I ever come across di Rasta's' which gwan so. Backbiting an fussin an fighting is sooo common, it is hard to sight up any real love at times.

It is this thing I King has asked I to Realeyes. Ones who been accusatory an jus down an out nasty, saying I was not a Rasta was baiting I to get down to dem level., now callin I sinner, but as I King point out, both is prayers to di devil, since not agreeing to disagree is a sin, jus as well as a cuss. He did not tell I to come off di board, which I think seh him know mi never want to do, there are too many good things bout di net, to jus give it up.

He asked I to Vision in I meditations, I strength without changing who I am, an not to beat I self up, when I sin, but rather let di Most High know immediately, that I have sin, an ask fi forgiveness, an MOVE ON. I had to Rise Above the din. I had to overstan that I am human as well as Rastafari. From time to time as His Majesty said, INI mek mistakes, but it is with great thankfullness that Jah mercy is allways available thru INI Jah, Yahshua, by di Powah of His Hola Spirit...I am trying again!